Monday, December 8, 2014

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Wednesday, November 26, 2014

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Wednesday, November 12, 2014

A new BLOG site!

Hey there Risky!
I found you lol.  You can run but you cannot hide forever!  I am missing you and the rest of the "FreeBird100CS Creations" team so badly.  There is a deep hole in my chest where my heart used to be.  Ashley will have me arrested if I try to see my sister, Kathy.  I paid for the Attorney's fee so she could be her "Guardian" and she did exactly what I told the Attorney what Ashley would do so now I am totally alone, angry and not sure or even care about any one or thing but you 3 gals the group and of course JBC.  Kathy does not even know that I am being kept from her...  I LOVE YOU ALWAYS...Cheryl FB100CSC
 

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

This is for all you FREEBIRDS, and you know who you are!

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Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Hello new Blogger Altova! Nice to see you here. When were ya gonna let me know you were using my site LMAO?

http://blog.altova.com/
Hey everyone here is a very nice informative site for ya all to use to pass the time away.  They do not seem to mention my blog site as one of their links to their blog site HUMM.  Ok that is cool I do not mind.  It is free cyber space.  Space out all ya need man it is free.  Says FreeBird100CS Creations anyway!

Monday, August 18, 2014

Can you see me?

If I am gone.  Will you look for me???
Written by:  FreeBird100CS AKA Cheryl Ann Seigel
A wife, A daughter, A mother, and A sister
Written at MDMC on 10/24/09
Can you see me?
I see you.
Do you know I am here?
I hear you, all of you.
If I am gone.
Will you look for me?
I do not like where I have gone.
Can anyone find me?
Will anyone look to find me.
I know something is not right.
In this cold dark lonely night.
My soul somehow is not attached.
Everything has been missmatched.
All memories of much misuse.
And of abuse.
Now I cannot see.
My tears on these lines are all a blur.
I look up and I see you.
Do you see me?
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Saturday, June 7, 2014




































Just another long nite with a blog of just a few blank tags I created it seems like a life time ago...  I have all but lost all my creations.  And I do not care any more.  I am not that person now.  I no longer am able to create or even entertain the thought of creating again.  Reading this is like taking a valume isn't it LMAO.  Enough from this kill joy.  C u in the funnies ryte?  BTW ya know there is no need to sign in cause I can never remember any of my PW so I made this sight user friendly and now you do NOT have to sign in to blog here~  FAR OUT RITE?  If you get a virus well hell get a better Doctor for that or app Mahahahahaha..??..
Cheryl AKA FreeBird100CS Creations aka FB100CSC
And my team of Jackie, Kimberly, Lyn and Denise which you have not seen their wonderful creations yet HUMMMM
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Monday, May 19, 2014

My Daddy, My Sister...Today and 1 year ago today...

My Daddy.
 Mr. Calvin C. Giffin
Died 1 year ago today.
He was a proud WW II Vet, serving under General George Patton as Tank Commander.  He was drafted into war at the tender age of 18 just barley.  He had 4 weeks of training then sent over seas.  He was separated and alone behind enemy lines after being shot with a morter shell which he took to his grave, for 3 months.  He did not like to talk about that war.  He has a purple heart.  I do not know where it is or went.  To much happened to me and my little family in to short of time.  There are many things missing.  I would love to tell his stories the ones that I can still remember, but I do not have the hands to type them out any more.  I know he gave me more than any one has in my whole life.  He was not my biological dad.  HE WAS MY DADDY!!!  I miss him more than any one ever.  I draw on his strength every day.  It turns out to be him that I am more like than my Mommie.  Now my Mommie and I were close VERY close, but it turns out I do understand my Daddy more after it is all said not done and identify with more than my Mommie.  I love them both, Mommie died April 21st, 2013 then Daddy, May 19th, 2013.  I am still going through their estate and personal papers and finding things, certificates, notes, thoughts, plans done and plans to be done.  Finding things they keep from all of us.  I am learning more about them now instead of when they were alive.  Only difference is now I do not have any one to talk to about them with.  And I just think and I used to cry.  Now I am starting to just feel nothing.  If I let myself feel any thing, well I just cannot breath.  So I just have to shut down as to be able to go on.  I know that is not right.  I also know that it is the only way I will life today.  Tomorrow will just be another day.  Mommie and Daddy knew I loved them so very much.  And I still and will always and forever love them.  I am glad it is over for them.  No more pain.  I will see them again I think sooner than later.
My Sister.
Mary "Kathy" Wiseman Garrard
 Today I had to do something I did not want to do. 
I do not think she wanted me to do either.  I had to give up medical Guardianship of her.  She is 60 years old and last year in Feb. had her 2nd heart valve transplant.  Things went horribly wrong.  She coded several time before going on by-pass one of which was over 15 minutes.  The Surgeon never asked us if we wanted him to keep going knowing there was for sure permanent brain damage at that time.   He just kept going.  He also put in a pace maker for her heart.  She come out on total life support and was that way for over a month.  The last time she saw her Mommie and Daddy was before her surgery.  She never did get to see her Mommie again after that.  I did manage to get someone to help me with cell phones to Kathy and Mommie 1 time so Kathy could hear her voice ONE time before Mommie died.  I was so exhausted trying to take care of my dying family.  So today my Daughter who Hated Kathy just as Kathy hated my Daughter is going to be her medical Guardian because I got into legal trouble, speeding and the like.  So now people have decided that I am not fit to be my sisters guardian over her Medical.  today that goes to court and will be done.  I did sign the papers over to my daughter.  Once again I have to feel nothing.  It is just another day.  Tomorrow will be another day and so on...  All each of us has is today, if it is good, well good.  If it is bad, well sorry I guess.  Life sucks then you do not die...   I used to not feel this way about 1 1/2 years ago.  Shit happens and people change.  Guess I changed.  Peace ya all.  Cheryl  AKA FB100CSC
 


Thursday, May 15, 2014

Saturday, May 10, 2014

blogs-n-pots from FreeBird100CS Creations: Another long strange trip it has been Saturday May...

blogs-n-pots from FreeBird100CS Creations: Another long strange trip it has been Saturday May...: My Daughter, Ashley took me out to eat, spent about 1 1/2 hours with me.  It was nice and we did not fight. All the while I was thinking I ...

Another long strange trip it has been Saturday May 10, 2014

My Daughter, Ashley took me out to eat, spent about 1 1/2 hours with me.  It was nice and we did not fight.
All the while I was thinking I was not going to be keeping my promises to my own Mommie to always keep nice flowers on her and her parents graves when they were gone...   I always told her that I would make SURE that both she and Grandma, Granddaddy, Daddy, Aunt Kay and any one else who passed on would always had nice flowers on their graves as long as I was alive.  I am alive and I am unable to keep that promise because I got caught speeding in my car trying to take care of my family while they were dying around me.  I tried to be there for each of them at their time of need.  As it turned out I still lost them, was not there for them and now I am unable to keep my promises to them.  I am as low as I can go and I do not want to "feel better".  I am done, I am tired, I am angry at everyone and I do not give a damn about anything now.  I never thought I would turn out this way.  Not ever.  But here I am.  I do know I need help, I did ask for it.  Now it is to late and I do not care if they try to help me.  I think I will do or not do what ever the hell I want or not want to do no matter what it may or may not do to or for others.  It has changed me completly.  I am not afraid of death.  I am looking forward to it!  I see joy in it.  So tomorrow all I will think is my sister will not be seeing me or her Mother or getting to go to her grave.  She will be laying in a nursing home not being able to talk but knowing she is there and I am not.  I will be knowing this plus knowing that I will not be keeping any of my promises   So if I do care it will eat me up.  If I do not care, I live but I am a shell of hate and emptiness   A vacuum void of feeling.  Happy Mother's Day to those of you who still have kids and Mother's who love you and you love them.  Enjoy it while you can.  Someday this may be you sitting alone typing this.  I sure hope not. I hope no one ever goes through this.  Not like this.  Today I find out that a friend dies and I know he died to stop the pain on the inside.  And for the first time I understand.  And I am glad for him.  He hurt and now he does not.  Problem solved.  He is in a beautiful place.  If it is the same place I saw when I died 2 times at Fayette County Hospital in 2010.  I so wanted to go back to that place.  I did not want to come back to this place called Earth.  Earth hurt to come back to.  Now I know why I had to live.  I have to be in Hell first.  Hell is here.  And I am living it on Earth.
Peace to you, I will have peace when I die, Cheryl Seigel
AKA FreeBird100CS Creations


Friday, May 9, 2014

blogs-n-pots from FreeBird100CS Creations: Mother's Day-Sunday May 10, 2014

blogs-n-pots from FreeBird100CS Creations: Mother's Day-Sunday May 10, 2014: Mother's Day, Happy Mother's Day to all Mother's out there!!!  You deserve it.  My Mommie deserves it more now than ever,  She ...

Mother's Day-Sunday May 10, 2014

Mother's Day,
Happy Mother's Day to all Mother's out there!!!  You deserve it.  My Mommie deserves it more now than ever,  She is gone now.  This is the second year she is gone.  I do not even remember last years Mother's Day.  It was much to painful.  This year I just wish it would go away as well.  You see I have not had time to grieve for my sister, Kathy for my Mommie or for my Daddy.  I lost all of them last year from Feb, April 21st, to May 19th.  It still does not seem real.  I hope to drag myself out of this major depression when I have the time and resources to seek out Peggy, my counselor I saw while my Divorce was going on and I thought my life was ending then.  The world to me has changed in every way possible.  In every way for the worst.  And I am angry very angry about it.  No one should ever have to say good bye to the ones they love in such a short horrible way.  So confusing, so un-real.  I am just numb.  I have done and become the very thing that I was against my whole life and I do not care.  I am trying to.  I know I should.  But why?  Well I have to go now.  Enjoy your families while you can, it can all be gone in the blink of an eye.  Happy Mother's Day Mommie and Grand-ma.  I love and miss you so very much but I cannot stop to think about that or I will not come back to earth.  You know what I mean if you have been listening at all.
Cheryl Seigel
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Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Just me fooling around in Animation Shop before I took lessons LOL Blog away my friends Nite Nite

Hello all you blogs-n-pots.blogspots just typin away with your days events.

How are y'all doin? I have been so busy I saw last week this morning and I am still not close to catching up to this week. I have decided I need a competent secretary to follow me around and take notes so I know which project I am working on at that moment. I am still looking up the many files for my Account as I have 5 tax ID's this year... I am not used to dealing with even 1 tax ID let along 5 of them. Face it I have not had time to grieve for the deaths of my parents etc and life that I have went through those stages at the most weirdest times. I am very angry now. VERY ANGRY. I do not want to walk this earth any more. My newest Dr. cannot even get my Rx filled out right so now Express Scripts will not send me any of my scripts. Not even any for my seizures. HELL I say LOL. Yep if it is bad it will happen to me. That is ok I can take it cause I know it will not be much longer that I will take it. To many things that my body tell me are wrong to fix. I just want to speed it up NOW. I never thought I would feel this way but I do and I am not sad, scared or anything like that. I am just empty about it all. Ready for nothing to be over ya know? To tired to think, to tired period. Ok time for bed see ya nite cruel world.