My Daddy.
Mr. Calvin C. Giffin
Died 1 year ago today.
He was a proud WW II Vet, serving under General George Patton as Tank Commander. He was drafted into war at the tender age of 18 just barley. He had 4 weeks of training then sent over seas. He was separated and alone behind enemy lines after being shot with a morter shell which he took to his grave, for 3 months. He did not like to talk about that war. He has a purple heart. I do not know where it is or went. To much happened to me and my little family in to short of time. There are many things missing. I would love to tell his stories the ones that I can still remember, but I do not have the hands to type them out any more. I know he gave me more than any one has in my whole life. He was not my biological dad. HE WAS MY DADDY!!! I miss him more than any one ever. I draw on his strength every day. It turns out to be him that I am more like than my Mommie. Now my Mommie and I were close VERY close, but it turns out I do understand my Daddy more after it is all said not done and identify with more than my Mommie. I love them both, Mommie died April 21st, 2013 then Daddy, May 19th, 2013. I am still going through their estate and personal papers and finding things, certificates, notes, thoughts, plans done and plans to be done. Finding things they keep from all of us. I am learning more about them now instead of when they were alive. Only difference is now I do not have any one to talk to about them with. And I just think and I used to cry. Now I am starting to just feel nothing. If I let myself feel any thing, well I just cannot breath. So I just have to shut down as to be able to go on. I know that is not right. I also know that it is the only way I will life today. Tomorrow will just be another day. Mommie and Daddy knew I loved them so very much. And I still and will always and forever love them. I am glad it is over for them. No more pain. I will see them again I think sooner than later.
My Sister.
Mary "Kathy" Wiseman Garrard
Today I had to do something I did not want to do.
I do not think she wanted me to do either. I had to give up medical Guardianship of her. She is 60 years old and last year in Feb. had her 2nd heart valve transplant. Things went horribly wrong. She coded several time before going on by-pass one of which was over 15 minutes. The Surgeon never asked us if we wanted him to keep going knowing there was for sure permanent brain damage at that time. He just kept going. He also put in a pace maker for her heart. She come out on total life support and was that way for over a month. The last time she saw her Mommie and Daddy was before her surgery. She never did get to see her Mommie again after that. I did manage to get someone to help me with cell phones to Kathy and Mommie 1 time so Kathy could hear her voice ONE time before Mommie died. I was so exhausted trying to take care of my dying family. So today my Daughter who Hated Kathy just as Kathy hated my Daughter is going to be her medical Guardian because I got into legal trouble, speeding and the like. So now people have decided that I am not fit to be my sisters guardian over her Medical. today that goes to court and will be done. I did sign the papers over to my daughter. Once again I have to feel nothing. It is just another day. Tomorrow will be another day and so on... All each of us has is today, if it is good, well good. If it is bad, well sorry I guess. Life sucks then you do not die... I used to not feel this way about 1 1/2 years ago. Shit happens and people change. Guess I changed. Peace ya all. Cheryl AKA FB100CSC
I think Ashley was just trying to ease the stress on you. You have so much going on. Even though they both hated each other at least this could give you some peace of mind knowing that Ashley decided to take on this task to give you some ease.
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